This is a sad, sad day and I wanted to let you know there will be no coupons posted today. I am spending my last precious moments with my beautiful Sadie, whom I am having to say goodbye to, today. Sadie is my nine-year old half German Shepherd-half Siberian Husky furbaby. She has been with me since she was five weeks old. Sadie is the oldest of my three furbabies and she might as well be my baby. She is my best friend. She has been there for me through some really tough times. She has never cared what I look like, whether I have the right clothes on, or if I do my hair. She still looks at me with complete devotion and gives me her unconditional love.
Sadie has been my sounding board through a multitude of problems. Always listening and offering me puppy kisses to help. She is always excited to see me. It doesn’t matter if I only step outside two minutes – you would think I had been gone all day! She is always by my side. She lays by my feet all day, sleeps by my bed at night, follows my every move, and loves to ride in the car!
When her new sister furbabies arrived, she welcomed them with open arms and treated them as her own babies. She took care of them and taught them the do’s and don’ts of the household. She would have been an amazing mom!
Well, about two months ago Sadie hurt her leg. We immediately took her to the vet. X-rays showed that she had fractured her leg. But the really bad part was, it also showed she had bone cancer. It ended up being a really fast-moving cancer. She hasn’t been able to use the leg since, it just hangs there. She has been in tremendous pain even with medications. The cancer has also moved into her lungs. Now, even with the highest doses of medication it has become unbearable for her and she can hardly get up and down. She cries out with the slightest movement or even if she isn’t moving. We take food and water to her and do the best we can with her outside duties. She can no longer walk, run or play. Her tail doesn’t curl up and wave high like a flag anymore, instead it hangs limp and lifeless between her legs. She just lies there enduring the pain, looking at me with those pain filled eyes.
I have been avoiding what should be done as long as I possibly can because I can’t stand to part with her. In the back of my mind, I had a glimmer of hope that she would get better. But now, the hope is gone. We just can’t beat this cancer thing. Sadie is not going to get better, only worse. I have been pretty messed up about the decision I have to make. I have never had to face this before. But, it’s not about me now. Instead, I have to think of her. They say dogs live in the moment and don’t fear death because they don’t know. I will have to take their word for it. She just knows the vet makes her feel better. Her suffering has become too much. I have to quit being selfish by trying to hang on and do what is right for her. Her suffering is only going to get worse and I don’t want that for my devoted best friend. I will let her go gently to sleep.
Lord knows, if love could cure her, she would have been well long before now. I have got to endure the pain of letting her go, knowing that her pain will be gone. God wants her in doggie heaven now, so it’s time to let my Sadie go home. Goodbye, sweet girl. We love you and will remember you always!